And, a quick update!

If you struggle with weight, read this book. Now. It exposes the science and the dirty politics behind America's "obesity epidemic" and the "government's" dietary recommendations. By government, of course I mean food industry moguls with a significant financial stake in widely spread misinformation. Go figure.

All law schools have been applied to, and so far I've been accepted at University of Richmond and Penn State. I'm waiting to hear about the scholarships they're offering before I decide, but most likely I won't be attending either of those. However, it's nice to get some admissions. I've decided my top choice is UNC-Chapel Hill. Rah rah Carolina-lina! Probably won't hear from them until April or May - oh well!

As if you didn't know, tonight is the season premiere of "Ru Paul's Drag Race." Basically America's Next Top Model for drag queens. It is, in fact, as awesome as it sounds. I cannot wait.

I plan on actually updating now that I have significantly more free time, now that all the dirty awful law school applications are in. Get pumped!

Gettin' flippin' real.

Yea, so I guess its time to start taking all my responsibilities seriously. Actually limiting my intake of crap food. Actually making myself eat all that healthy stuff. Don't get me wrong, I *like* that food, it's just that when you're as heavy as I am, you have to eat A LOT to get to your calorie goal. French fries are an easy shortcut to reaching the calorie goal, especially when you've already reached your other nutrition goals. Still, that's not very healthy. But, the more I lose, the less time I'll have to spend spooning peanut butter into my mouth at the end of the day.

I'm really good at bullshitting myself into thinking I'm behaving. There is no getting around the fact that I am a month behind on all of my personal goals - weight loss, law school applications, organizing my house, etc. Why is that? I would never, ever go back on a commitment to someone else. Sigh. Oh, well. I get my LSAT scores back tomorrow. I really hope they are a motivating influence. Sigh.

Personal Statements and the Procrastination That Scared Me Shitless.

Well, I'm finally getting serious about these personal statements. So, of course, that means there is some serious procrastination going on - the likes of which have not been seen since the days of 10 page papers on James Madison. This procrastination has not exactly inspired me to continue on. Instead, I've been reading advice for 0Ls and it is making me want to hide in a hidey hole so hidey no one will ever find me. (0L's are students who are going to law school, 1L's are first year law students, etc.)

I'm hearing about everything from videos about how law school is like high school, including rumors about everyone's sex lives to petty comments about the choice of briefcase and wardrobe (but we all know I won't have a problem with that), to stupid remarks about how law school is a useless, terrible choice unless you get into a Top School. I know the latter is just wrong. But still, way to play on my insecurities. I guess I should just take this as confirmation that I should stick with my previous top choice school. It is the best fit for me in terms of lifestyle, and frankly, I WILL be happy. I refuse to play the "too stressed to have a life/friends/relationships" game. Obviously I'll be busy, but it seems like some of these people use how stressed they are as a barometer for how cool they are. (For the record - SUPER cool.)

Breathe and release. Gotta concentrate on getting in first. Back to trying to be different than the 1.4 million other jerks writing this same freakin' paper.